But when I mention this view to people outside the world of philosophy, they often seem stunned that anyone could ever believe it. They are immediately drawn to the very opposite view. The true self, they suggest, lies precisely in our suppressed urges and unacknowledged emotions, while our ability to reflect is just a hindrance that gets in the way of this true self’s expression. To find a moment when a person’s true self comes out, they think, one needs to look at the times when people are so drunk or overcome by passion that they are unable to suppress what is deep within them.
For once, I don't even know where to begin quoting Nietzsche on the idea that there even is one single "true self", let alone one we can ever be completely conscious of. So I'll turn my attention elsewhere, confident that you will join me in dismissing the validity of the notion.
W.H. Auden wrote about Freud's legacy:
To us he was no more a personNow but a whole climate of opinion.Under whom we conduct our differing lives...
Yes, and it drives me slightly mad when confronted with the above belief, one of what I feel to be the most enduring parts of Freud's work, even among people who who would rightly roll their eyes at the idea that they ever wanted to fuck their own mothers or that their personality quirks are derived from conflicted feelings over their excretory functions. Why does a fleeting urge count as more of an honest expression of someone's nature than their more-or-less consistent behavior over a longer period of time? The neocortex is not necessarily the lie to the amygdala's truth.
It reminds me somewhat of how religious apologists are always insinuating (or outright claiming) that human nature is such that, left to our own devices, everyone would really prefer to be raping, robbing or pillaging, and that's why we need religion, or at least a belief in God, to keep us in line. Atheists wearily reply that it never seems to occur to these people that maybe we've considered what it would be like if we were to act on those impulses and have consciously decided against it, either because we don't consider the consequences worth the risk, or because we value the more subtle pleasures involved in being so-called civilized over those of immediate gratification.
In both cases, there's a core assumption that your knee-jerk impulses are more real, true, or valid, and that anything beyond them is a façade of after-the-fact rationalization, sublimation, or fraudulent deception. But they're not necessarily any of those things; they're just simpler. Thoughtful consideration isn't necessarily better or worse or more right or wrong than acting on impulse; it's just different. No one would consider a rough draft to be truer than the finished painting, novel or song; what if you attempt to cultivate your life like a work of art? What counts for more then, the inchoate jumble of competing ideas, or the realization of the overall vision?
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Oh I like this one.
I've done a lot of cultivating of myself since I was really young - of traits i felt i had but didn't know how to express with any elegance and traits that i admired when i saw in other people that led to experiences i coveted - and the biggest struggle throughout all of that wasn't the polishing and refining - it was the stupid internal fight between this notion of authenticity that had me gripped but couldn't really ever justify itself and my instinct to improve in self-determined ways that was demonstrably successful....
nothing makes me cringe more than the encouragement to 'be real, be yourself...' even though there's a difference between faking and having integrity and sincerity and being genuine - most people aren't really hitting the nuances of those things when they say it -
i love how you make an image for this out of comparing a rough draft to the final version to decide if one is truer...so poignant. It gives me something to remind myself of when I get trapped in despair because what I have created of myself is leagues away from the raw material i started with as though that somehow calls it all into question.
Dear Mr. Vile Scribbler:
It is interesting you use the term "cultivate your life like a work of art," as I believe it was precisely this phrase that Nietzsche himself used on the men he most admired.
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe in particular, Nietzsche saw in him a great artist of life, and sought to hold him up as a model in "The Antichrist."
Nietzsche, at least according to my understanding, says that one must seek out one's true self, and seek to live that life, to be worthy of it, and fight for it everyday.
It is important that Nietzsche looks for the true self as a higher self, one that must be striven for in the heights; this is not an inner self that can be discovered be following your bliss.
It is strange, because although there is hardly a better prophet of individuality than Nietzsche, he also refers to it as the "curse of individuation" in "The Birth of Tragedy." Perhaps he was still under Schopenhauer's curse... the accursed will.
"What counts for more then, the inchoate jumble of competing ideas, or the realization of the overall vision?"
Interestingly, Nietzsche considers this the decadence of modernity, of modern art: the overall vision is lost to the brilliant passage; there is no whole art, only a rabble of brilliant passages.
BTW. along the lines of finding your true self, Steven Pressfield wrote a beautiful post called "The Amnesiac's Story." It is one of his most beautiful posts.
http://www.stevenpressfield.com/2010/11/the-amnesiacs-story-3/
@Erin
"i love how you make an image for this out of comparing a rough draft to the final version to decide if one is truer...so poignant. It gives me something to remind myself of when I get trapped in despair because what I have created of myself is leagues away from the raw material i started with as though that somehow calls it all into question."
Beautiful!
I like Mr. Vile Scribbler's metaphor of the rough draft and final draft as well.
Aaron Fung
@Erin. I always love to see your process. It highlights the peculiarities of my own, especially since we are so similar.
I never had this internal tug-of-war. I simply am; for better or for worse, and it's just up to me to make it in a world that might not appreciate that.
Of course, it probably helps that I like myself, and I like to like myself, and that if there's something I don't like about myself I seek to correct it, because, hey, who spends more time with me than me? I ought to enjoy it, not?
Scribbles, (you can send me out in the hall for not calling you Mr.) I, too love your example of the rough copy and the finished work. I don't know about you, though, but I find a lot of art to be no more profound than a rough draft.
Were you aware that in studies of intuition, if you correct your immediate gut instinct after cognitive reflection, you are more often right? The neo-cortex is often maligned, but it is still a useful bundle of meat.
I mean, people are capable of incredible self-deception. But it doesn't mean it's always a lie.
Thanks, Erin. You might enjoy this post from last year too.
Hey Aaron --
Please, just plain "Scribbler" would be fine, or even "Scribs", as Noel calls me. "Mr. Vile Scribbler" makes me think you're talking about my dad.
Well, given that Nietzsche was consciously opposed to the very idea of trying to construct a systematic, internally consistent philosophy, it's hard to ever say what he "really" thought about any given topic, because he changed his mind often; or, rather, came back to the same themes from different perspectives without trying to make clear what he thought personally.
But one of his more consistent themes was that of opposition to the Socratic/Platonic idea of a single, rational self/soul (not to mention that of a single "truth"). He anticipated much of modern psychology (including some of the few things Freud got right) by trying to elucidate what actually goes on in our minds when we make decisions, focusing on how often it's a case of one particular drive or urge simply managing to win out this time over the competition.
His emphasis was constantly on "overcoming" -- overcoming external obstacles, yes, but especially overcoming oneself. The self wasn't for him a stable thing to be reinforced, it was a process, a fluid pattern, always in flux (Heraclitus was one of his favorite ancient Greeks).
I think it's just a question of language here; he was certainly in favor of the sort of striving you mention, but he would probably find the concept of a "true self" waiting at the end of the search to be an unhelpful, misleading one, one more thing to be overcome.
the whole philosophy of 'true self' is *supposed* to be liberating. Your freedom hides inside your true self if only you could unveil it, let it out. current wisdom has countless step by step programs to help you understand how you get in the way (silly you) and how to stop doing that so you can be truly free.
in reality it just makes a stress of everything and has no beauty in it, no nuance.
@shanna
It amuses me how you end one thought with mentioning how similar we are and then start the next one by stating the opposite of my experience :p
I have never simply...been. there were always layers and layers of aspects to everything in me - I used the 'true self' philosophy because I hadn't ever read Nietzsche (where were you guys when I was 15?) but it was the kind of starting point that is useful anyway because it put me at total odds with what was instinctive and natural to me so that I could *see* what didn't work about it.
my inner realms are complex as landscapes go - so traveling them can be pretty inspiring and wondrous but never still for long enough to be able to say 'I simply am'. which, to me, has nothing to do with self esteem at all. it seems to if i'm in conflict about not being fixed or clear (and therefore untrue), but it's not -
which is why "cultivate your life like a work of art," gives me shivers. it's what I yearned to do from a young age with all my potentials - i just didn't know I was allowed until I knew for myself that all my trying to be my 'true self' was ....less remarkable than a life as a work of art.
@Aaron
I read the article from your link - I love the mystery of discoverables. makes me think if I was trying to answer the question 'who am I" I'd end up answering: I don't want to know - i just want to keep being surprised by what comes out.
It's like the writing adage 'show, don't tell'. authenticity today is all about being able to explain myself in a tidy little package - it's so much more alluring to let the show of it speak for itself - even within my own head....
having said that - i love being introspective, and curious about how I and others 'work'...I want to keep doing that without turning the whole process into..an algorithm...no romance left at all! like...'authenticating':p
anyway..nice to meet you!
it was the kind of starting point that is useful anyway because it put me at total odds with what was instinctive and natural to me so that I could *see* what didn't work about it.
Yeah. I did everything ass-backwards myself as far as "becoming who I am". I was pretty much a cipher until my late teens (so I don't know if I would have been any use to you when you were a teen), but at least I did it all wrong early on and got it out of the way.
To find a moment when a person’s true self comes out...
In vino veritas
It's not that base urges and uncivilized opinions are truer than other facets of ourselves; it's that they are often hidden, and when they are exposed, a truer picture of a person is revealed. What a person says when drunk may not reflect his "true self", but it might reveal something that you didn't know before.
(I just got back from Napa valley, where everyone knows each other very well.)
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